Do not expect anything. Express yourself fully.
By not expecting anything, we can be wholly ourselves. We are undistorted by desire, fear, or insecurity. Only expectation makes room for such obstacles.
"Without any idea of time, your practice goes on and on. Moment after moment you become you yourself. This practice is not so easy. You may not be able to continue it for even one period of meditation. You will need to make a big effort. Then you can practice extending this feeling moment after moment. Eventually it will extend to your daily life." ~ Shunryu Suzuki
Self-expression does not mean saying and doing whatever is on your mind. Try not to confuse it with impulsiveness, self-indulgence, or whim. To really express your living presence, you must be free from hope and fear. You must be present, at ease, alert, and natural.
At first, this practice may feel quite unnatural. We have trained ourselves into confusion to the extent that the confusion has become natural to us, meaning easy without effort. But that confusion is not our nature. By loosening expectation and practicing free from hope and fear, you can begin to express your larger self in any simple or complex activity from making and enjoying tea to giving a lecture to the president at the White House.
"Shikantaza, our zazen, is just to be ourselves. When we do not expect anything we can be ourselves. That is our way, to live fully in each moment of time. This practice continues forever.
We say, “each moment,” but in your actual practice a “moment” is too long because in that “moment” your mind is already involved in following the breath. So we say, “even in a snap of your fingers there are millions of instants of time.” This way we can emphasize the feeling of existing in each instant of time. Then your mind is very quiet.
So for a period of time each day, try to sit in shikantaza, without moving, without expecting anything, as if you were in your last moment. Moment after moment you feel your last instant. In each inhalation and each exhalation there are countless instants of time. Your intention is to live in each instant.”
Namaste, sangha :)
*has the option to say some negative shit about someone*
*doesn’t take the option and continues to live life peacefully*